English Spm 2018 💔

Back in 2016,when i was taking pt3. I still remember. My teacher called me a day before english paper. She asked me to meet her. I wasnt alone that time. Coz Hadi (nama tipu) was also there. My teacher wanted to meet both of us. Then. She told us, that she really hopes that we both can get A for english.

To be honest,i was so speechless. 

Because i never thought someone will put so much expectation from me. Even me,myself dont even trust myself. 

So started from that,i felt motivated. And started from that,i i love english even more. 

I am not a clever girl,trust me. I only got 3A's for my pt3.

And to be honest, i didnt even feel sad when i got my result. Because its more than enough. I know my limit. So for me, 3A is fine. 

I received a few chat from my friends and some of my relative. Some of them say like this "dont be sad".

I dont even feel sad. But,i did felt sad bcs i dint get A for english. Because i know i had done my best. 

Started from last year,i started to push my self even more for english. Coz i love english so much. 

After taking english paper yesterday,i feel so sad.

Coz i know.

That i cant get A for english.

It wasnt easy.

And to be honest,for spm,i am one of the targeted student to get A for spm.

But lemme tell you.

English paper really made me feel blue. I hate it.

And i know. That i cant get A for it.

I am sorry teacher. Again,saya tak mampu.

I cried a lot. Bye.

😔😔