Cancer
I met my friend.
And something that hit me really bad was when she shared about something.
Something that made me speechless.
A day before spm, her principal joined them for solat maghrib and tazkirah. So the ustaz gave that mic tu the principal for his last word and motivation for the student before spm.
So in the meanwhile,the student started to talk. And some of them even laughed. And obviously,we know that,they shouldnt do that. They should focus. And listen. But here we go again,they r still kids.
And stress with spm. Plus,they were studying at a really good school.
They r forced to do a really good in examination so that school cam have a high rankin.
So what the principal said is "saya berkorban datang sini,sebab saya nak tengok awak semua. Tapi awak masih gelak gelak,sembang,macam tak ada apa. Kalau saya tahu,baik saya jaga mak saya. Mak saya cancer. Tengah sakit di hospital."
That time i was really sad.obviously felt touch bcs he came all the way for the student. But then,
What made me sad the most is,when my friend told me.
Her mom is also a cancer fighter. And stage even worst than the principal's mom. I know that i shouldnt compare them.
She was like "ala. Mak aku pon sakit.Tak pernah pula aku guna ayat tu" Then she walked away.
You know what hit me the most?
That girl,she was studying so far away from her house. When her mom diagnosed with cancer,she was still at school. And what else can she do? She can do nothing about it. And she keeps on praying.
When her mom was sicked,what can she do? She was still at school and know nothing about her mom.
What im trying to say,she wasnt there when her mom needs her. She was studying so hard to pay her mom and dad for all the sacrifices that they have made.
There was the time when she felt so guilty and worried, but what can she do? Give her mom a call. And will get the same answer.
"Mama okay. Kakak take care tau,dont worry about mama. I love you." Ya the same words.
When she was pissed off with anything,or sad,or anything related to bad things/feelings,she just keep it to herself. Nobody was there for her. She dont like to disturb her mom since her mom was sick.
The same words that hurts her slowly. She knew that her mom wasnt okay. But,she cant do anything. She can only pray and pray. Hoping that allah will take a really good care of her mom.i mean,what else can she expect,right?
When we tought that we are in the stage when we are so struggle and feels like nobody understand us,nobody have go through this phase.you guys are so ungrateful. And what else we said? Everytime when we have problem,we will always ask allah.
She laughed. Because that is how she can stop worrying about her mom. Yes,she still worry about her mom. But at least,she can put it aside. And focus on something else.
Maybe that was not the right time.
But for the principal to say those words,was not good. I mean,you are not the only one who have struggle with your life. You were saying that to make the kids to feel guilty and understand you.
You r not the only one who needs to take care of somebody who is sick.
You are not the only one who think you have a really big problems.
Srsly. I said what i said.
Peace.
And something that hit me really bad was when she shared about something.
Something that made me speechless.
A day before spm, her principal joined them for solat maghrib and tazkirah. So the ustaz gave that mic tu the principal for his last word and motivation for the student before spm.
So in the meanwhile,the student started to talk. And some of them even laughed. And obviously,we know that,they shouldnt do that. They should focus. And listen. But here we go again,they r still kids.
And stress with spm. Plus,they were studying at a really good school.
They r forced to do a really good in examination so that school cam have a high rankin.
So what the principal said is "saya berkorban datang sini,sebab saya nak tengok awak semua. Tapi awak masih gelak gelak,sembang,macam tak ada apa. Kalau saya tahu,baik saya jaga mak saya. Mak saya cancer. Tengah sakit di hospital."
That time i was really sad.obviously felt touch bcs he came all the way for the student. But then,
What made me sad the most is,when my friend told me.
Her mom is also a cancer fighter. And stage even worst than the principal's mom. I know that i shouldnt compare them.
She was like "ala. Mak aku pon sakit.Tak pernah pula aku guna ayat tu" Then she walked away.
You know what hit me the most?
That girl,she was studying so far away from her house. When her mom diagnosed with cancer,she was still at school. And what else can she do? She can do nothing about it. And she keeps on praying.
When her mom was sicked,what can she do? She was still at school and know nothing about her mom.
What im trying to say,she wasnt there when her mom needs her. She was studying so hard to pay her mom and dad for all the sacrifices that they have made.
There was the time when she felt so guilty and worried, but what can she do? Give her mom a call. And will get the same answer.
"Mama okay. Kakak take care tau,dont worry about mama. I love you." Ya the same words.
When she was pissed off with anything,or sad,or anything related to bad things/feelings,she just keep it to herself. Nobody was there for her. She dont like to disturb her mom since her mom was sick.
The same words that hurts her slowly. She knew that her mom wasnt okay. But,she cant do anything. She can only pray and pray. Hoping that allah will take a really good care of her mom.i mean,what else can she expect,right?
When we tought that we are in the stage when we are so struggle and feels like nobody understand us,nobody have go through this phase.you guys are so ungrateful. And what else we said? Everytime when we have problem,we will always ask allah.
She laughed. Because that is how she can stop worrying about her mom. Yes,she still worry about her mom. But at least,she can put it aside. And focus on something else.
Maybe that was not the right time.
But for the principal to say those words,was not good. I mean,you are not the only one who have struggle with your life. You were saying that to make the kids to feel guilty and understand you.
You r not the only one who needs to take care of somebody who is sick.
You are not the only one who think you have a really big problems.
Srsly. I said what i said.
Peace.
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